Trust...

I stared at you with anger,
Confused with words spewed out,
Questions by questions came racing by,
Never stopping to ask why.

Never once did you be peace,
Always asking, always pestering,
Am I not good enough for you, I wonder?
Till these words come flying by?

Trust me, you ask, with pleading eyes,
Can't you see I do?
Why can't you trust me, still you ask,
Why can't you see I really do?

I have a mind of my own, and I wish to follow,
Not all your wants should you get,
Do not be selfish, appreciate what you have,
Don't ask for more, when you have plenty.

Always be yourself, I said,
Let me see who you really are,
But you keep telling me how I would hate,
If you showed me who you are.

Why should I, if I accepted you?
I just want to know you,
Please, no lies or false pretences,
It'll just lead to doom.

I don't get it, what do you want?
You keep telling me to trust,
I do trust, thought not completely,
After all, a girl's got to be wary of men.

Is it so hard? Is it tough?
To just accept that I am who I am?
It's hard to trust, when betrayed a dozen,
But why can't you see that?

All you wanted was for me to trust,
And so I did, but it wasn't enough,
Now you said I don't trust much,
Faithless in you, suspicious of you.

Now I feel like I'm split in two,
One to please, one to rebel,
I can't be myself anymore,
Not with these in my head, please no more.